I call this one... "I seriously have no idea how to process my emotions properly. Just know, that every single day of 2020 for me has seriously been more miserable than the last and that I really feel like killing myself. THIS IS SO SAD ALEXA PLAY DESPACITO Also, if you seriously do have a problem with the fact that probably the only reason I'm even alive right now is I haven't finished watching Naruto Shippuden, watching anime, and shopping because holy shit yesterday I learned "my friend" who I hung out with yesterday is seriously NOT my friend because holy shit did I feel so worthless when she made me feel like my shopping hobby is completely worthless, and how after hanging out with her I immediately cried all night when I got home and realized growing up really does mean growing apart and how being around her for a long time yesterday made me realize how emotionally drained I felt after I went home then YEAH she's kind of CUNT AND SERIOUSLY NOT MY FRIEND ANYMORE"
What's the mood, Shinji
But wow they seriously aren't joking when they say Twitter is seriously performative as fuck because HOLY SHIT as much as I would love to broadcast to the world and my friends on my public Twitter that I'm seriously going through terrible shit like this
I CAN'T
Because Twitter is so fucking performative but yeah holy shit am I miserable
I seriously barely have any friends to begin with
But if "my friend" from yesterday seriously is making me feel like shit that much then I should seriously consider no longer hanging out with her because HOLY shit was I seriously that miserable when I was around her
omg
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not to mention that im getting a lot of really strong vibes of like what happened with exboyfriend and the buying thing here with her too, but that's a lot to unpack and a heavy load of baggage I won't get into today